It Figures

So, every lead for us moving out of here has dried up. Shane has had several phone interviews, but none of them resulted in an actual offer. We think one might have, but Shane turned it down quickly after they wouldn't budge on the 25-50% travel requirement. Then there was the long shot job in Okinawa. Shane ran into his contacts (who, strangely, are here in the DC area) and found out he was perfect for the job and probably would have gotten it, had it not been for his salary being above market for Okinawa and us having a kid who'll be going to school soon. This was a problem because they would have to pay for Caleb to go to the DoD school. They found a single guy in Hawaii and it's much cheaper to ship him to Okinawa. But, this all makes sense. Why would they spend so much more money on us when they don't have to?

And so, I'm getting to that stage in the pregnancy when I get stupid. You moms know what I'm talking about right? When I'm doing something and think "I have to do such and such right after I'm doing this." and then 10 seconds later, when I'm finished with the first thing, I can't remember what the second thing is. Or when I'm at the grocery store and get so exhausted and overwhelmed because I have to buy shredded cheese and there are like 10,000 choices to decide from. Anyway, I'm getting more and more disillusioned with the thought of moving across the country. And so, over the past few days, I've been trying to convince Shane to just give up the fight and let's just stay here. I can't believe I'm saying it, but I guess that's what growing a baby can do to a person.

And then, we started talking about the possibility of Shane getting transferred up to Ft. Meade, MD in a year (but even this is dependent on if his company wins the rebid of the contract, which they won't know until the end of March). Anyway, we looked at houses up there and oh my! We would actually be able to afford a great house! Unlike Cali., where we will likely end up with a tiny house with no yard. We both started to get excited about staying here!

So, yesterday Caleb and I went to Target and I bought the biggest packages of laundry detergent, trash bags and Listerine. I had been buying the smaller ones because I wanted to use everything up before we leave. But, since we were talking about staying, I wouldn't have to worry about it. This was yesterday. Last night, Shane gets an email about some jobs (not singular, plural) in the strawberry and lima capital. What? You don't know where the strawberry and lima bean capital is? Where have you been? I can't believe you've never heard of Oxnard, CA. Actually, I've never heard of it either and I lived a good part of my life in Cali. It's about an hour north of LA, right on the coast.

At this point, we're not all that excited to move to Oxnard. It would be more exciting to move to San Diego, where the job security would be a lot better. I'm not really counting on anything coming out of this lead. But, I was putting my Target goods away this morning and thinking, it just figures! What if we did move? What in the world will I do with all this Listerine??? I tried to get the receipt out of the trash so I could return it, but a butter wrapper (I made banana bread, yum!) had dissolved the ink away.

I'm not upset about this though. Really. I'm too tired to get upset. I just don't want to make any decisions at this point. I just want to go with the flow and do things like figure out how I will get my next Coke Icee.